Time Flash!

Aaaand WHAM! It's already the end of July! Time really flies when you don't want it to! Whats happened since I last updated?

1. I got employed!
Yup. I got an interview back home, hopped on a plane and passed the interview 2 days later :D. Granted it was only a contract for 6 months (probation, bummer) but I decided I needed to kill time AND gain work experience whilst awaiting for my visa to be processed. That stint is nearly over so I'll be heading back to KL for a couple of weeks, and then back to Melbourne sometime in September to job-hunt and wait for my visa to go through.

Good thing though, as I decided I do not like the idea of working as a dietitian back in Malaysia (especially in areas where a Mandarin-challenged banana like myself cannot function). ideally if I were to come back i would prefer to work in KL, but if that cannot happen then perhaps a job in sales *looks pointedly at Nestle and Danone, and possibly L'oreal/Estee Lauder wtf*  

2. I cut my hair!
The last time I had it chopped short was back in '07, when I first headed off to Newcastle. After 5 years I decided I had enough of long curly (or this time frizzy and dead) hair.  

3. I planted some apple seeds!
I was on an apple-a-day phase, and one day I randomly thought "wouldn't it be nice if I could grow these seeds?" as I spat out the seeds in my hand (mind you, this is after I failed to grow my lavender Eggling *fail*... and some bokchoy seeds which I bought started to grow mouldy rather than sprout *double fail*). It's good to know that the one time I decided to sprout something from seeds which I didn't pay for really worked out well in the end!  

4. I bought a tea set! (or two, nyahaha)
Earlier this year (or was it end of last year?) I bought a Masaki Tachi banko-yaki teapot from HOJO at the Gardens. The only thing missing are some clay cups to go with it. Then I was seriously lemming some Noritake teacups at BSC. I saw them from outside and it immediately caught my eye, and it was one of those "OMG I NEED THEM" moments.
 
Speaking of "OMG I NEED THEM" moments, I realise I hardly overspend money or stuff but when that moment hits I will spend all I can to own it despite how ridiculous it is. For example the earliest memory I can remember was at the age of 6. I saw a knitted sleeveless top with a sequinned Minnie Mouse sewn on it. I stopped in front of the shop and wouldn't leave until my parents bought it (possibly threw in a super-brat tantrum too). The shirt cost more than RM100 which was A LOT of money at the time, and we weren't rich either. But my parents gave in and bought it. Funny thing is I never wore it HAHA because it was an adult's shirt and I was a dwarfy 6 year old. I just looked at it hanging in the cupboard and felt happy wtf. Other things included a porcelain doll chucked somewhere under the stairs, a Gloomy Bear shirt I bought in Melbourne.

But I digress. Anyways, I've been trying to work really hard and reasoning with myself before ending up with another failed purchase *coughminniemouseshirtcough*, so I dutifully dragged myself away from the shop. Last week I saw the same cups, this time with a teapot. A TEAPOT!! I don't care if it was made in Sri Lanka, but I really really really love the Blue Sorrentino pattern! Now that its mine, I promise and swear to myself not to buy anymore fine china until I purchase something from Meissen(German) or Herend(Hungarian). Crossing my fingers till the Eurotrip (if it ever happens), and hoping Dad will help to foot some of the costs of those handpainted lovelies. Ooh train-of-thought derailing again! There was this really cute figurine of a kitty in Noritake, it was fat and purry (thats right, purry!) and to die for! Already lemming over it haha so much for swearing off non-handpainted china.

Whew long post. I'll end it here for now. :D

Update!

That's all. Just an update to remind myself not to let this blog die. Very much like my social life is. Or what remnants of it that's left.

That being said, what has happened since my last post? Let's see.. I have applied for more retail jobs and I finally got off my procrastinating ass and applied for a proper dietitian job.

I also got rejected for the one I mentioned in my last post wuuuuuu T^T you'd think by now I'd be immune to it, but nobody likes being rejected I tell you, NOBODY! (unless you're perverted in that kind of way then come let me unleash my fury on you *cracks whip*)

It makes me feel worthless *sigh*

And it doesnt help that I've turned into some sort of pubescent boy and started sprouting lumpy zits full of pus all over my face. Its like all those thousands of ringgit spent on Accutane treatment was for nothing. And my periods are out of whack. Good god, i'm turning into a manhormonal imbalance much????

Then again it could be because I put away two whole boxes of Digestive biccies in like, 4 days. So much for making Banoffee pie. Ooh and to stop myself from pigging out on Tim Tams (I put one whole tray away in a day last week, no wonder my face is like this) and taking the Micchus's precious ones, I told her she could have a dollar for every TimTam of hers I eat. Which works pretty well because I am kiamsiap that way.

Except that yesterday I was naughty and had a go at hers HAHAHA she doesn't know yet coz I snuck one from the end of the pack. I should leave a note with "$1" on the empty slot no? I want something sweet to eat now dammit! *storms off angrily*

会いたい今。

I've been sighing a lot more lately. Thanks a lot. I am frustrated that I don't know how to go about you, and also frustrated because I'm not even sure you are worth frustrating over about!! ARGH dilemma.

Then again I also could be sighing a lot more as I am now out of a job, and have resumed my hermit-like ways of being cooped up at home, looking forward to the weekends and the next possible outing with you.

I'm supposed to be applying for jobs now, but I've been procrastinating. Will do so tonight. In addition to proper dietetics jobs, I've been trying to get part time jobs in fashion retail.

Ooh its time for the Bold & the Beautiful! *goes off to watch*

Playing with a tiny little flame...

... but I don't know how or when to start :(

I feel so tempted to say something when you're online, but I can't. I don't want to scare you off, my circle of friends here in Melbourne is tiny, and if you're alienated from me then my circle will be diminished to just me. And Micchy.

Nor do I want to be teased. And (for now) I still dislike your cousin. But you seem like such a sweet boy. I just want to get to know you better, because I can't really say I like you till I actually know you a little more, no?

I just don't know how to start. The end.

A sad, and true story.

Last chance!

A couple of days ago while working at the bookshop, two guys came in. I recognised them from a few days ago, they came in to look for Law textbooks.

So I went up to them and cheerily asked "Hello again! Can I help you?" And one of them goes "Ah so you remember us! Yeah we're just here after some books. And yeah the last time we were here my mate here *jabs finger at the guy with him* asked you out for a date but you turned him down! And he's not the type to take no for an answer!"

At this point my face is still frozen in a smile but my brain was like *wtf no I don't remember this was this Jess he's talking about?* Commence nervous laughter.

"Heh heh, well I'm afraid I shall have to dissapoint him again by saying no... again?"

And then I sort them out with their books and returned to the till to wait and see if they were gonna buy more books. They didn't and left the store. As they were leaving the store the dude pops back in and says "Last chance! Are you available this weekend for a lunch date?"

And I went "Heh heh heh? What?!!?" And shake my head. And then my boss comes out from the office with big smirk on his face and asks "Was he hitting on you". I say clearly no, coz the guy in reference didn't actually say anything it was his friend that did all the teasing. He then asks if I thought the guy was cute, but I was unpacking books at the time and answered "huh? do I think this *book* is cute (wtf)???" And when I realised he meant the guy I said maybe, some people may find that kind of look attractive but not me. Boss states his surprise, he however felt the guy looked a little Wog-ish. And I said "Really? I didn't check to see if he was wearing socks"

Boss gives me a "wtf" face. I said because back in college, my housemate teased me when I wore socks with my sandals. She said it was a very Wog-gy thing to do. So I always thought a Wog was a person that wore socks with their sandals/slippers/loafers. Boss roars with laughter. He tells me a wog is a person of Greek/Italian descent.

But I already knew that lol. And boss himself is a wog. Too bad I didn't check to see if he was wearing socks with his slippers haha.

Boss and my manager didn't let me live the next few days unteased about that incident. They kept shouting "Last chance! Last Chance!" at the most random moments such as when ordering my lunch, or when I am going to the toilet, or even when the shop is too quiet wtf.

Nostalgia

Tonight I went out for a lovely Korean dinner with Micchus and some friends. It was a great time, awesome food and even better company. I haven't laughed so much this week, thanks for always providing a good time, JHau.

As dinner drew to an end, I looked towards the entrance to gauge just how long the queue of the next wave of hungry diners would be. I spot someone who seemed to be staring in my direction, and thought "oh boy, they must really be killing for us to leave". After all, we were done and were doing nothing but chatting and sipping bori-cha. Then I realised that face looked kinda familiar. And my stomach flipped. Because it meant there was a high possibility that you were there.

And you were. Looking at me (or my table). Possibly contemplating murder. But soon enough you got your table, right next to mine. As you and XNgai take your seats, I sneak a closer look at you, as the place was poorly lit and it could very well be your dopelganger. Our eyes meet for a split second, and I am 1000% sure it is you. After obsessing over you for the last few years of my high school life, I am pretty damn sure I know its you when I see you. I quickly avert my eyes. I don't know how to respond or react? Do I go up and say hi? Do I pretend I never saw you? Should I wait for you to make the first move?

I pick the ignore option. It seems you chose that too. After so many years, its the same. Keep calm, ignore and carry on.

Rage girl

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU---

It would appear that he's just an Asian version of Roger. Fark lah, why must it be so????

In other non one-sided stalkinglove news, I'm training to be a bookshop assistant. Yeah. Hope it goes well :D